I'm struggling with this right now. I'm struggling to be 100% at home, 100% with my kids and 100% at work. Somethings gotta give and I know it can't be any of these, problem is, home is involved in my work. I work for my father in law, while this is really nice and flexible it also makes it so I can not dissapoint. It's not like I can go home and be away from my boss for the weekend, we are at his house playing with the kids, having dinner together and being a family. We have always done a good job of keeping home out of work and work out of home, but my type A personality wants to always be perfect at my job, at motherhood and at keeping a home.
A typical work day for me is getting up at 6:30, getting myself ready,getting the kids out of bed and changed/dressed for the day. We are lucky that the grandma's watch the babies while I'm away at work, but I can't ask them to do my housework (my mother in law does sometimes anyways). I'm off to work by 7:30 while hubby watches them until the grandma of the day comes over and he leaves for work. I work work work all day long until 5 when I rush home to babies that are starting to get hungry, make dinner, play for a few minutes, we eat and they go to bed. They have always been early to bed babies, they go to sleep around 7 and wake up at 7. This works for us...well kind of, because that means on days that I work I spend approximately 2.5 hours with my babies....I spend more time with my work family which makes me sad.
I know that I am lucky to work 3 days a week (the other 2, I work from home on projects) and I am lucky that my father in law allows this. But lately co-workers have been asking me if I will be adding another day anytime soon....my answer...I don't wanna talk about it...Now my father-in-law/boss has said nothing to me, I think our schedule works, I accomplish what I need to accomplish and I get to spend some time during these precious first years. These co-workers don't have kids so it is very hard to have them try and understand my being torn by their question.
My question is how can you have it all? Is there a secret that I haven't figured out yet? Or is it just something that I will learn with more time?
Thank you for listening to my rambling post that is my brain right now....and as a reward, here's a picture of some cute babies....(I may or may not be partial)
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